Being Impatient

Oh, Wow. I Still Can't Believe I'm Still Like This After All This Time. But, I'm A Very Impatient Person. I Hate It. But, Sometimes I Love It To Cuz Then People Know That I'm Not Bullshitting When I Want Something. I Hate Fucking Waiting On Shit. It's Just That When I Want Something I Want It Right Then And There. Same Thing When It Comes To Men. If I Want A Man To Be A Certain Way Or To Change. Something Like That I Get Very Impatient With All That Shit And Move On To Something Else. It's Just Strange That I Still Have That In Me. I've Been This Way Since I Was 16. That's When It Started Creeping In. People Say That It's Being Bitchy Cuz Of How I Say It. But, I Say Things When I'm Impatient In Mean Ways Cuz It's Funny And I'm Kidding At Times With It Also. Yall Know By Now That I'm A Very Abrassive Woman. And I Feel That I Want Or Deserve Certain Things In Life. And Well That I Should Feel Like That. And I Think In A Way That Every Woman Feels The Exact Same Way That I Do. Shit, I Derseve The Best. And Don't Take This The Wrong Way. But, I Don't Mean In A Materialistic Way When I Say That. Cuz, I Don't Care About Material Things Cuz That Shit Comes And Goes. Just Don't Give A Fuck About All That. But Anyway, I Just Think That People Can't Tell When I'm Joking Around, Or Being Serious. Sometimes It's Funny To See The Looks On People's Faces Cuz They Can't Tell. But, Then I Bust Out Laughing. Then They Know That I'm Kidding. I Wish That I Wasn't Like That Cuz I Know That Now That I'm On My Grown Woman About It. There's No Need To Be Impatient About Anything In Life. Cuz, Eventually I Know I'm Gonna Get What I Want And Get My Way Anyway. But, Yall Already Know That I'm Just Irresitable Like That. LOL. But, You Gotta Love Me Though.

Hurt Beyond Measure

Shit, I Thought That Today Was Gonna Be A Different Day. But, I Guess I Was Wrong. Got My About To Be 4 Year Old Son's Pictures Today When I Got To See My Babies. And Later On After I Got To Spend Time With Them Cuz Mother's Day Is Coming Up This Weekend And All That. We Go Out And Meet Up With His Friend And All That Good Shit. And We Got Back To My House. And I Said That I Wanted To Get Something To Eat To Feel Better That I Had To Either Sleep With Him, Or Give Him Oral Sex. I'm Not That Type Of Bitch. He Got The Wrong One On That Shit There. I'm More Than Just A Quick Fuck, Or Some Shit. To Me I Mean More Than That. I'm Sorry But This Is Bullshit. If We Get Divorced I Wouldn't Give A Fuck Cuz To Me I Don't Mean Shit To Him. And It's Time To Hang It Up. I Have His Kids For God Sake, And He Has No More Respect For Me Than That. Shit, I'm Better Off On My Own. Like I Said I Need A "Real Man" In My Life. Cuz, This Is Crazy. I Know I Ain't All That But Shit I'm Better Than He's Making Me Out To Be. It Hurts Cuz I've Invested 11 Years Into This. And It Seems Like He Don't Care. But, I Got My Sons And That's All I Care About. And As Far As Him I Don't Care. He's Just My Baby Daddy And I Don't Give A Fuck. I Had 3 Cranberry And Vodkas And I Feel Pretty Good Right Now. I Really Don't Care At This Point Cuz I'm Glad I'm Alone Cuz Men Ain't Shit. Why I'm Crying Over This Shit I Don't Know. Cuz, To Tell You The Truth I Don't Give A Shit. It's Gonna Get To The Point Where I'm Not Gonna Be Able To Be Friends With Him. I Can't Wait Til Our Divorce Is Final Cuz He's Such A Piece Of Shit. Shit, I'm Done With Him I Can Do Better. Fuck It!

This Is Just Wrong...

Shit, Right Now I'm So Fucking Pissed Off And Emotionally Mad It's Not Even Funny. I Found Out That Someone I Know That's A Female Damn Near Got Beat To Death By Her Fucking Boyfriend. This Is So Crazy Cuz Us As Women Don't Need To Be Treated This Way. It's Ridiculous How Bad It Is. I Barely Can Type Or Talk About This Right Now. I Hope She Presses Charges On Him. Cuz, He's A Piece Of Shit That Needs To Rot In Hell With Gasoline Draws On. Shit, He's Got A Spot Already Waiting On Him Anyway. And What Scares Me Is That She Says, "She Loves Him". Oh No, She Can't Be Serious. He Beat Her Like She Was A Fucking Man. Let Me Get My Hands On That Asshole I'll Show Him Who The Real Nigga Is, And Who The Real Bitch Is. And I'm Telling You Now That The Bitch Ain't Me. I Can't Stop Crying Cuz I've Been There And There's NO EXCUSE For What He Did. None At All. I Feel So Bad For Her Cuz I Feel Like She's Just Gonna Have Him Locked Up Cuz She's Just Upset Right Now. And Then When She Calms Down Drop The Charges And Let Him Out So He Can Do It Again. And Shit, He's Gonna Do Worse If She Doesn't Do Something About It. They Got Into An Arguemnet Which I Understand. But It Didn't Have To Go That Far Though. And From What I Know They Are Gonna Keep Her At The Hospital. If She Doesn't Press Charges At Least Put A Restraining Order On Him To Keep Him From Her. With All This Going On It Makes Me Fear To Be In A Relationship. If That's What Females Think Love Is. Ladies, If A Man Hits Or Beats You Get Out Now. A Man Doesn't Love You If He Puts His Hands On You. I Don't Care What Anybody Says. And If You Think That's What Love Is Shit, You Have Major Fucking Issues. Cuz, Ladies We All Know Better Shit Than That. Don't We?